cold cold heart

It’s cold outside brought by the snow,
Just like my cold cold heart full of sorrow,
It’s too late but yet I’m still awake,
Trying to avoid you in my mind, makes me sick.

You’re taking me forgranted always,
I know that but I still keep myself a fool,
I love you against anything, oh boy,
Until that I didn’t love my own self- my soul.

It seems that my hardwork and sacrifices are nothing,
Because you just mind yourself, that’s what you always claim,
I’m wrong to myself in loving you, loving you in vain
The love that I’m waiting never happened and never came.

Oh please! Sunrise give me warm breeze,
To my cold cold heart that I think will not cease,
I’m going to walk away one day from you and I’ll try to forget,
The love and the memories that once we’ve shared.

the ugly side of love

Today, it’s gonna be the last day for both of us
We decided not to be as what we are used to be
We have struggle so much not to end
But our minds and our hearts break and mend.

We have our own reasons..
We have our own priorities..
We can’t no longer heard the word “WE”
But to argue and say “how about me?”

It’s not good anymore to hurt each other’s heart
It’s too bad to see us fighting back..
We fight as an enemy, ranging revenge
We hurt each other’s ego. Where’s respect?

I wanted not to give up on our dreams,
Even if it will cause so much pain
But you wanted to get away from me
I’ll let you go. I’ll set you free..

I hope one day we gonna met again
Maybe that time we are finally happy
Even if we don’t share as lovers
But we are friends and we cares.

If there is no chance to see you anymore
I will utter a prayer to see you in heaven
Maybe that time you will feel my love
Maybe..Maybe that time you will love me again..

Right now, all i can do is to hope for tomorrow
If you found happiness to her then go for it
I will be happy sooner or later don’t worry
you’re the reason behind, right now I’m lonely.

Wish you the best...in everything
Don’t look back if you don't love me anymore
I’m gonna be okay and everything is under control
There’s God beside me ready to catch me when i fall.

unanswered..

So lost in your eyes
So happy with your smiles
I want to see you happy with me
I want you to feel that, as same with me..

You said you love me but you got doubts,
I said be patient, right time will come.
You have to trust me as you mention usually,
I replied. I need faithfulness and your loyalty.

I didn’t treat you as my knight and shining armour
Not only as my lover, perfect friend and but as mentor.
We laughed, we cried, we break up and we make up.
We don’t care to as long as we feel the mode of love.

But you just said today,
Maybe I can’t make you happy,
And all you mean is to set me free.
Don’t know why you give up and just tell “I’m sorry”.

Do you want me to leave you?
Do want me to forget you?
But did you ever feel the love that I offered?
Did you ever see the happiness through my eyes?

Is this the start of the finale of our sad love story?