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I can’t park myself well,
Mind spinning and runs like a wheel.
Its midnight, yet I can’t sleep.
Thoughts are rough and in too deep.

I’m lying in the bed of nails,
I’m sad feels like nobody cares,
Do I have to close my eyes?
Do I have to dream another lie?

Indeed, Love comes and goes.
After you have loved and torn apart,
Another chance again that someone will knock.
The same cycle and ending up with broken heart.

Morning is coming, yet too long to wait
Mr Right is hard to find. Is it my fate?
Do I have to love again and cry?
Do I have to believe another set of lies?

epitome of love

All I think about is you.
Day and night and in everything I do.
Every second, every tick of the clock
I see your face, now I’m stucked.

Finding answers to these questions is hard,
Lost in my shoes, and dipped in the ground.
No angel or devil could give me reasons,
I’m so paranoid, my veins are poisoned.

Wish you were here by my side,
Hold my hand and keep me alive.
Too much word that I’ve said
So I could be with you, I’ll just lay on my bed.

please tell me*v*

Tell me what makes you happy
And I’ll give it to you.
Tell me what makes you smile,
I’ll sing if you wanted to.
Tell me what makes you laugh
And I’ll laugh with you.
Tell me things,
I’ll do it for you, it’s true.
Tell me if i make your world goes round,
Just tell me and so I wouldn’t wait for you.
Tell me if you don’t love me,
Got no choice. I’ll let you go.

its time to say goodbye..

so this time
its a time to say goodbye..


if i could turn back time
if i could make you happy
if i could make a way to let you stay
but i guess, its not the right time..

if the moon will still smile to us
if the stars will still shine unto us
if we will have that the same rhyme
i guess its not yet the right time..

You said you love me eternally
But you left me alone so easy
You said forever we will be
Promised that i will be your one and only.

Go away if you don’t feel the same as before
Don’t go back for i am not waiting for you anymore
Don’t ever say “ i love you”.
If you just wanna say goodbye.


So this time..
I’ll say goodbye for love that we had
I’ll no longer turn back to our treasured past
it’s time to say goodbye for the love that didn’t last..

melancholia..

Sunshine on the winter.
Warm breeze on the coldest nights.
Comfort to those who grief.
A joyful soul to those who weep.

Mercy to those who are forsaken.
Home to the hearts being abandoned.
Smile to the face chained of fears.
Embraced to the unwanted being,
Human uplifted to inhumane.

Guidance to those who are astray,
Meek, lowly and depressed.
Shine to them and make them blessed,
Rescue those who woe and those who are in need.

Send love to those hearts that are broken.
Peace of mind to those in the midst of chaotic thoughts.
Bring joy to the sad tale of misery and grief.
Give them rest, happiness and relief.

So sick to this world,
Full of darkness, full of emptiness
Lost in spirit, a missing soul
Alone, broken, abandoned.

To the tune of Claire de lune,
Let them not accept the face of death.
Tired the battle of life and wants to end.
Please let it rain....oh please.
Not to drop a tear but to send a heaven’s kiss.

on valentines day..

The light is still shinning..Waiting
Like the stars up above the sky
Like the wind the blows anytime
The time is still running...hoping


I know its so hard to think were over
We have shared a lot of things together..
But here we are as friends ...not as lovers
This is the end..Heartaches that will takes forever

Tomorrow, it will be Valentine’s Day.
i wish you the best and be happy..
too hard to take the journey of letting go..
walking to a different roads of life full of sorrow..

I still love you but our time isn’t now
Maybe tomorrow or maybe never..
Wishing you are also looking at our past..
Trying to figure out why our love didn’t last.

No need to celebrate the hearts day if you are heartbroken
You’re just making it too hard for you.. Makes you insane.
I guess it isn’t as happily ever after story..
I’m not dreaming. But still its fantasy...



At this moment, I’m saying your words to myself...


Goodbye my love.. Goodbye
You will forget me as time passes by
Don’t be sad.ohh please don’t cry.
I love you.. I’m sorry but I have to say goodbye...

Let me dream again
Let me wish to the shooting star
I’m hoping. I’m waiting and praying
That tomorrow the cupid will strikes our hearts again..