The Dreamer

I don’t know what to start

Is this love or is this illusion?

But i call it as a best dream

Its like a real magical feeling.

I’m not obsessed I might say,

But you make my day so gay.

Staring to your picture most often,

And oh I really love to hear your name.

When i think about something like destiny

Why the picture in my mind is you and me??

Trying to hide my feelings makes me sick

Especially when you’re beside me, gets me weak.

Wishes are free as they said so ill keep wishing,

That one day you’re holding my heart instead of hers.

That one day you will feel the same way.

As i dream of you loving me.

note to GOd by charice

calls of affinity

sugarcane,honey bunch
sweetie pie, your an apple in my eye
honeybunny,oh my dairy
brownsugar, and my sweet and sour..


ohh my pumpkin and my darling
loveydovey,sweetie baby
dear,sweetheart and my cuppcake
your truly a honey, my milkshake..


my teddybear who always there
my precious,one and only love
my heaven, my dream and everything
my life and my destiny..

cold cold heart

It’s cold outside brought by the snow,
Just like my cold cold heart full of sorrow,
It’s too late but yet I’m still awake,
Trying to avoid you in my mind, makes me sick.

You’re taking me forgranted always,
I know that but I still keep myself a fool,
I love you against anything, oh boy,
Until that I didn’t love my own self- my soul.

It seems that my hardwork and sacrifices are nothing,
Because you just mind yourself, that’s what you always claim,
I’m wrong to myself in loving you, loving you in vain
The love that I’m waiting never happened and never came.

Oh please! Sunrise give me warm breeze,
To my cold cold heart that I think will not cease,
I’m going to walk away one day from you and I’ll try to forget,
The love and the memories that once we’ve shared.

the ugly side of love

Today, it’s gonna be the last day for both of us
We decided not to be as what we are used to be
We have struggle so much not to end
But our minds and our hearts break and mend.

We have our own reasons..
We have our own priorities..
We can’t no longer heard the word “WE”
But to argue and say “how about me?”

It’s not good anymore to hurt each other’s heart
It’s too bad to see us fighting back..
We fight as an enemy, ranging revenge
We hurt each other’s ego. Where’s respect?

I wanted not to give up on our dreams,
Even if it will cause so much pain
But you wanted to get away from me
I’ll let you go. I’ll set you free..

I hope one day we gonna met again
Maybe that time we are finally happy
Even if we don’t share as lovers
But we are friends and we cares.

If there is no chance to see you anymore
I will utter a prayer to see you in heaven
Maybe that time you will feel my love
Maybe..Maybe that time you will love me again..

Right now, all i can do is to hope for tomorrow
If you found happiness to her then go for it
I will be happy sooner or later don’t worry
you’re the reason behind, right now I’m lonely.

Wish you the best...in everything
Don’t look back if you don't love me anymore
I’m gonna be okay and everything is under control
There’s God beside me ready to catch me when i fall.

unanswered..

So lost in your eyes
So happy with your smiles
I want to see you happy with me
I want you to feel that, as same with me..

You said you love me but you got doubts,
I said be patient, right time will come.
You have to trust me as you mention usually,
I replied. I need faithfulness and your loyalty.

I didn’t treat you as my knight and shining armour
Not only as my lover, perfect friend and but as mentor.
We laughed, we cried, we break up and we make up.
We don’t care to as long as we feel the mode of love.

But you just said today,
Maybe I can’t make you happy,
And all you mean is to set me free.
Don’t know why you give up and just tell “I’m sorry”.

Do you want me to leave you?
Do want me to forget you?
But did you ever feel the love that I offered?
Did you ever see the happiness through my eyes?

Is this the start of the finale of our sad love story?

///d!sturb!a///

I can’t park myself well,
Mind spinning and runs like a wheel.
Its midnight, yet I can’t sleep.
Thoughts are rough and in too deep.

I’m lying in the bed of nails,
I’m sad feels like nobody cares,
Do I have to close my eyes?
Do I have to dream another lie?

Indeed, Love comes and goes.
After you have loved and torn apart,
Another chance again that someone will knock.
The same cycle and ending up with broken heart.

Morning is coming, yet too long to wait
Mr Right is hard to find. Is it my fate?
Do I have to love again and cry?
Do I have to believe another set of lies?

epitome of love

All I think about is you.
Day and night and in everything I do.
Every second, every tick of the clock
I see your face, now I’m stucked.

Finding answers to these questions is hard,
Lost in my shoes, and dipped in the ground.
No angel or devil could give me reasons,
I’m so paranoid, my veins are poisoned.

Wish you were here by my side,
Hold my hand and keep me alive.
Too much word that I’ve said
So I could be with you, I’ll just lay on my bed.

please tell me*v*

Tell me what makes you happy
And I’ll give it to you.
Tell me what makes you smile,
I’ll sing if you wanted to.
Tell me what makes you laugh
And I’ll laugh with you.
Tell me things,
I’ll do it for you, it’s true.
Tell me if i make your world goes round,
Just tell me and so I wouldn’t wait for you.
Tell me if you don’t love me,
Got no choice. I’ll let you go.

its time to say goodbye..

so this time
its a time to say goodbye..


if i could turn back time
if i could make you happy
if i could make a way to let you stay
but i guess, its not the right time..

if the moon will still smile to us
if the stars will still shine unto us
if we will have that the same rhyme
i guess its not yet the right time..

You said you love me eternally
But you left me alone so easy
You said forever we will be
Promised that i will be your one and only.

Go away if you don’t feel the same as before
Don’t go back for i am not waiting for you anymore
Don’t ever say “ i love you”.
If you just wanna say goodbye.


So this time..
I’ll say goodbye for love that we had
I’ll no longer turn back to our treasured past
it’s time to say goodbye for the love that didn’t last..