desolated

Just stay strong even if it crashes you down,
Life is so complex that love sometimes can’t bind.
Confused yet you know the answer but indeed reality hurts.
Knowing that you don’t own the world even how much you exerts.

Be contented even if you feel down and less.
Coz in first place we’re blessed and God made no mistakes.
Everything happens for a reason that we might not know
Give us lesson, courage, hope, joy, love and sorrow.

Situations maybe so intricate to understand
But you need let it go and sway with the flow.
Stop worrying, anyway it doesn’t move you anywhere
Just keep living and take everything you can bear.

Lastly, be brave have faith in your self and in God.
Please try to take it easy. honeybun, my sweet baby
Love yourself. Be wise, pray and ask for guidance.
life is too short. Everything can happen in a split of a second

shush

i hate to cry but why im crying because of you
i hate to be sad but i am so so blue
i hate to think why you’re always doing this
i don’t know sometimes you think that i don’t exist.

I feel like i don’t belong in your world
I feel like i don’t fit in your heart.
Is this true? Tell me because i don’t really know
Maybe its only me whose being true.

Its so hard to expect and i will be disappointed.
Its too hard to hope if its not meant to be.
Its too bad to love and not be loved in the same way.
Its too sad to think that our relationship is getting unhealthy.

I don’t know how to end this but i will
I know i will be hurt but ill take it, i guess
Knowing your happy is enough
To show you that i love you so much.

i wish.......

I wish i have a time machine

Play of mind or destiny

Happy Life Quotes

Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens.Circumstances and situations do color life but you have been given the mind to choose what the color shall be.-John Homer Miller

How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life you will have been all of these.-George Washington Carver

Challenges come so we can grow and be prepared for things we are not equipped to handle now. When we face our challenges with faith, prepared to learn, willing to make changes, and if necessary, to let go, we are demanding our power be turned on.-Iyanla Vanzant

Finding and losing

I found myself reading your letter today,

I smiled and i cried at the same time

Will i still fight for you or not?

Will i still cherish the memories we had?

I found myself trying to contact your cp numbers

And i think if i will call you, will it be matters?

Will you answer my call and say hi?

Or if you recognize my voice will u say hi and bye?

I found myself looking at your picture with her

And im too confused that i don’t know what to feel

If this is still the feeling of love?

Or is this the feeling of losing my love?

I found myself saying a prayer for you.

That no matter what, you will end up happy

And if we will meet each other again

I hope that day will never end.

I’m losing my self

Will you find me or not?

Im losing you in my life

Will you come back?

Im losing the feeling

Will it still go back?

Im losing you..

Is this what you want me to do....????

The Dreamer

I don’t know what to start

Is this love or is this illusion?

But i call it as a best dream

Its like a real magical feeling.

I’m not obsessed I might say,

But you make my day so gay.

Staring to your picture most often,

And oh I really love to hear your name.

When i think about something like destiny

Why the picture in my mind is you and me??

Trying to hide my feelings makes me sick

Especially when you’re beside me, gets me weak.

Wishes are free as they said so ill keep wishing,

That one day you’re holding my heart instead of hers.

That one day you will feel the same way.

As i dream of you loving me.

note to GOd by charice

calls of affinity

sugarcane,honey bunch
sweetie pie, your an apple in my eye
honeybunny,oh my dairy
brownsugar, and my sweet and sour..


ohh my pumpkin and my darling
loveydovey,sweetie baby
dear,sweetheart and my cuppcake
your truly a honey, my milkshake..


my teddybear who always there
my precious,one and only love
my heaven, my dream and everything
my life and my destiny..

cold cold heart

It’s cold outside brought by the snow,
Just like my cold cold heart full of sorrow,
It’s too late but yet I’m still awake,
Trying to avoid you in my mind, makes me sick.

You’re taking me forgranted always,
I know that but I still keep myself a fool,
I love you against anything, oh boy,
Until that I didn’t love my own self- my soul.

It seems that my hardwork and sacrifices are nothing,
Because you just mind yourself, that’s what you always claim,
I’m wrong to myself in loving you, loving you in vain
The love that I’m waiting never happened and never came.

Oh please! Sunrise give me warm breeze,
To my cold cold heart that I think will not cease,
I’m going to walk away one day from you and I’ll try to forget,
The love and the memories that once we’ve shared.

the ugly side of love

Today, it’s gonna be the last day for both of us
We decided not to be as what we are used to be
We have struggle so much not to end
But our minds and our hearts break and mend.

We have our own reasons..
We have our own priorities..
We can’t no longer heard the word “WE”
But to argue and say “how about me?”

It’s not good anymore to hurt each other’s heart
It’s too bad to see us fighting back..
We fight as an enemy, ranging revenge
We hurt each other’s ego. Where’s respect?

I wanted not to give up on our dreams,
Even if it will cause so much pain
But you wanted to get away from me
I’ll let you go. I’ll set you free..

I hope one day we gonna met again
Maybe that time we are finally happy
Even if we don’t share as lovers
But we are friends and we cares.

If there is no chance to see you anymore
I will utter a prayer to see you in heaven
Maybe that time you will feel my love
Maybe..Maybe that time you will love me again..

Right now, all i can do is to hope for tomorrow
If you found happiness to her then go for it
I will be happy sooner or later don’t worry
you’re the reason behind, right now I’m lonely.

Wish you the best...in everything
Don’t look back if you don't love me anymore
I’m gonna be okay and everything is under control
There’s God beside me ready to catch me when i fall.

unanswered..

So lost in your eyes
So happy with your smiles
I want to see you happy with me
I want you to feel that, as same with me..

You said you love me but you got doubts,
I said be patient, right time will come.
You have to trust me as you mention usually,
I replied. I need faithfulness and your loyalty.

I didn’t treat you as my knight and shining armour
Not only as my lover, perfect friend and but as mentor.
We laughed, we cried, we break up and we make up.
We don’t care to as long as we feel the mode of love.

But you just said today,
Maybe I can’t make you happy,
And all you mean is to set me free.
Don’t know why you give up and just tell “I’m sorry”.

Do you want me to leave you?
Do want me to forget you?
But did you ever feel the love that I offered?
Did you ever see the happiness through my eyes?

Is this the start of the finale of our sad love story?

///d!sturb!a///

I can’t park myself well,
Mind spinning and runs like a wheel.
Its midnight, yet I can’t sleep.
Thoughts are rough and in too deep.

I’m lying in the bed of nails,
I’m sad feels like nobody cares,
Do I have to close my eyes?
Do I have to dream another lie?

Indeed, Love comes and goes.
After you have loved and torn apart,
Another chance again that someone will knock.
The same cycle and ending up with broken heart.

Morning is coming, yet too long to wait
Mr Right is hard to find. Is it my fate?
Do I have to love again and cry?
Do I have to believe another set of lies?

epitome of love

All I think about is you.
Day and night and in everything I do.
Every second, every tick of the clock
I see your face, now I’m stucked.

Finding answers to these questions is hard,
Lost in my shoes, and dipped in the ground.
No angel or devil could give me reasons,
I’m so paranoid, my veins are poisoned.

Wish you were here by my side,
Hold my hand and keep me alive.
Too much word that I’ve said
So I could be with you, I’ll just lay on my bed.

please tell me*v*

Tell me what makes you happy
And I’ll give it to you.
Tell me what makes you smile,
I’ll sing if you wanted to.
Tell me what makes you laugh
And I’ll laugh with you.
Tell me things,
I’ll do it for you, it’s true.
Tell me if i make your world goes round,
Just tell me and so I wouldn’t wait for you.
Tell me if you don’t love me,
Got no choice. I’ll let you go.

its time to say goodbye..

so this time
its a time to say goodbye..


if i could turn back time
if i could make you happy
if i could make a way to let you stay
but i guess, its not the right time..

if the moon will still smile to us
if the stars will still shine unto us
if we will have that the same rhyme
i guess its not yet the right time..

You said you love me eternally
But you left me alone so easy
You said forever we will be
Promised that i will be your one and only.

Go away if you don’t feel the same as before
Don’t go back for i am not waiting for you anymore
Don’t ever say “ i love you”.
If you just wanna say goodbye.


So this time..
I’ll say goodbye for love that we had
I’ll no longer turn back to our treasured past
it’s time to say goodbye for the love that didn’t last..

melancholia..

Sunshine on the winter.
Warm breeze on the coldest nights.
Comfort to those who grief.
A joyful soul to those who weep.

Mercy to those who are forsaken.
Home to the hearts being abandoned.
Smile to the face chained of fears.
Embraced to the unwanted being,
Human uplifted to inhumane.

Guidance to those who are astray,
Meek, lowly and depressed.
Shine to them and make them blessed,
Rescue those who woe and those who are in need.

Send love to those hearts that are broken.
Peace of mind to those in the midst of chaotic thoughts.
Bring joy to the sad tale of misery and grief.
Give them rest, happiness and relief.

So sick to this world,
Full of darkness, full of emptiness
Lost in spirit, a missing soul
Alone, broken, abandoned.

To the tune of Claire de lune,
Let them not accept the face of death.
Tired the battle of life and wants to end.
Please let it rain....oh please.
Not to drop a tear but to send a heaven’s kiss.

on valentines day..

The light is still shinning..Waiting
Like the stars up above the sky
Like the wind the blows anytime
The time is still running...hoping


I know its so hard to think were over
We have shared a lot of things together..
But here we are as friends ...not as lovers
This is the end..Heartaches that will takes forever

Tomorrow, it will be Valentine’s Day.
i wish you the best and be happy..
too hard to take the journey of letting go..
walking to a different roads of life full of sorrow..

I still love you but our time isn’t now
Maybe tomorrow or maybe never..
Wishing you are also looking at our past..
Trying to figure out why our love didn’t last.

No need to celebrate the hearts day if you are heartbroken
You’re just making it too hard for you.. Makes you insane.
I guess it isn’t as happily ever after story..
I’m not dreaming. But still its fantasy...



At this moment, I’m saying your words to myself...


Goodbye my love.. Goodbye
You will forget me as time passes by
Don’t be sad.ohh please don’t cry.
I love you.. I’m sorry but I have to say goodbye...

Let me dream again
Let me wish to the shooting star
I’m hoping. I’m waiting and praying
That tomorrow the cupid will strikes our hearts again..

unfounded

you are my sweet sunshine in the midst of winter

you are the finale to the endless road of
eternity.

you are the magical existence i could imagine.

you are my light in the middle row of my darkness journey.

you are the grotesque key to my heart and my mind.

you are the reason for everything.

you are my life if i'm lifeless sometimes

you teach me to hold on and never give up..

but that was before..

the great man i believe is just like a fantasy.

turns out to disastrous conclusion of a love story.




let me say in a reverse way..



you send snow storm to ruin my pleasant day.

eternal love that we just started and we easily ended.

you lite the candle but you blow it out.

you are the weird,crass and dumb. naive ass ive ever had.

key is nothing if got no lock..


you are the reason to my wildness thoughts.

you let me embrace the face of death..

so now, ill give up on you..
ill let you go.

please..

dont mind to find me,
because my spirit will be with you always..

the death of my heart makes me alive..

nocturia

i wanna wake up in the morning hugging you..
kiss you on my lips
smells you ..
touch you..


dont get mad if i didnt slept with you last night
party and hang out with friends on city lights
i know you'll understand me. yeah know..
because you cant leave me my dear sweetie..


right now, i cant control my temper
pms again oh shoot i hate it
but i slapped you and kicked you already.
ohh so sorry my dear my baby..


what i like you most is the time when im always crying
youre like shelter in the moments of rainy days
gives me comfort,gives me heat
pampers me when im weak..


i know youll always be there no matter what
even how much hurt i inflicted you. still you will be there
in time of ups and in downs ill expect you
youre the best! you treat me as what i am..


i wish i can make you human
to feel what i feel..
to love for real
to be a friend ..
or to be my lover..

my pillow.i love you